This past Sunday, Steve Daugherty, one of our teaching pastors at Crosspointe, spoke. His message, The Trouble with Jesus--Jesus Hid, has had me thinking all week. I'm not very good at hiding. I'm not very good at ceasing. I am constantly fighting the urge to let my identity be confused with my achievement. There are always these warped voices in my mind telling me that I need to be productive. Even on my day off. Even when I am suppose to be enjoying some down time. Just ask my family--I usually start the day with, "What's the plan?"
Why does there always have to be a plan? Why does there always have to be a to do list? For some reason I've been carrying this baggage around for years that tells me stay busy--if you're not busy, you're lazy.
It's interesting that I am also reading a book called Mudhouse Sabbath. I love this author. She seems to speak to me right where I am. Here's something she said that I have been thinking about today--
"When we cease interfering in the world, we are acknowledging that it is God's world". Hmmmmm
As a mom, I wonder what I have been teaching my kids about the rhythms of life? I look at their lives and I already see them repeating patterns that I have modeled. I really want them to understand that even Jesus recognized when it was time to shut down. He's a much better model than me.
Of course, I'm writing all this as I sit in my office at work, on my day off. Boy! I'm a mess.
Comments